Do I really want to wake up in the morning?

I'm trying to decide if I want to go to church tomorrow. Part of me says, "Yes! Go! Even though you would be alone doesn't mean that you aren't welcome in your class." People go by themselves all the time, but I'm not people... I have a hard time doing things at church without Josh for some reason. Everywhere else I feel pretty confident with myself, but at church I feel like I need him to really belong. I don't know, I kind of want to go. I'm not sure I want to go to Sunday school though. Maybe I'll just go to church. Urgh! Why am I having such a hard time making such a basic decision? More importantly, why am I going on and on and on and on about it online?